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Fade and Born Again
A brainstorm
Wunderpus
The Yellows
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Greenhouse at U.S. Botanic Gardens
Around the city
A pigeon in paradox
Garden Plant
Home of the brave
The Strain of Expectation
A noon in the fairy desert
Laundry
The Chinese Culture Garden at South Seattle Community College
The Road To Heaven
The dog cloud
Recycling
"The Red House" Americana Series
Crex crex
Remembering
City of Arts and Sciences in Valencia
Space Shuttle Discovery National Air and Space Museum
16th Annual Smithsonian.com Photo Contest
The Strain of Expectation

“There’s a lot of pressure when you’re the oldest in the family. you’re raised knowing that you must set the example for your younger siblings and that you’re the one who sets the family name in motion. You can’t afford to be lazy or slip up, you can’t be average, and the standards of excellence are mediocre compared to what you have to do. Failure brings shame and punishment. I was told this at the age of three when my brother was born and again the next year when my sister was born. reminded everyday with everything I do. Again, at fifteen I was reminded of the same speech I always heard, now with the notion of my future knocking at my door. Throughout high school, I was acknowledged by my teachers, peers, and even the state of my academic achievements, leadership skills, and creativity. None of it was enough to satisfy the beast at home. What was I doing? What am I striving for? Chasing this degree of perfection is like crawling to a mirage of an oasis in a desert. It’s always within your grasp but never in your fingers. It started to wear me thin. At seventeen, I noticed the ropes. How they were tied tightly around me. My movement were restricted and controlled. Am I puppet? What was controlling me? I tried to fight back, and the ropes only got tighter as I struggled. They burned and redden my wrists, sometimes drawing blood. I only got more tired the longer I fought. At eighteen, I accepted the ropes. At twenty, I found comfort at the end of one.”

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Date Taken: 03.2018
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