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The next day, things progressed more smoothly, and soon I was mounting the horse. Addison’s directions took on the repetitive nature of a chant. "Do it again," he said every time the stallion flinched or spun. "Get back on," he said every time I got off.
The horse had to learn to accept me and that I wouldn’t hurt him. I had already learned that nothing would dissuade Addison. The heat and the repetition bled away my internal arguments.
Let me say right here that only one of the 90 or so people Addison has talked through his process has suffered more than a rope burn, a bump on the rear end or a nip on the arm. That person was 14-year-old Annelise Bianchini of Boulder, who visited in the fall of 2002, got bucked off and sailed ten feet through the air before landing and briefly blacking out. ("I was scared," she said later, "and the horse got that.") Her mother, Sharon, watched as Addison sat with Annelise after the accident. Would she let her daughter do it again? "Oh yes," says Sharon. "No question."
Horsewoman Mari Carlin Dart is "incredibly impressed" by Addison’s safety record. Still, "it’s a dramatic-looking process," she says. "It’s scary. Eleven hundred pounds goes straight up in the air when a horse gets scared."
Indeed. Back in the corral, I mounted the stallion and all hell broke loose. He reared up and was starting to fall over backward when I jumped off and landed on my feet. I said, "I’m not afraid of him anymore." At least that’s what Ash said I said. I don’t remember that, but I do remember what came next. Addison said, "Get back on him." And I did. A few minutes later, I rode the stallion for half a turn around the ring. It had taken me, all told, six hours to ride a wild horse.
I let him go in the corral, went to my tent and collapsed. Soon, Addison rolled up and said, "Your horse needs to be petted around and reassured some."
At the corral, the stallion’s head hung. His eyes stared dully. Only then did I realize how exhausted he was, how terrified he’d been. I brushed him and hugged him and petted him.
As I stroked the little stallion back to life, I fell completely in love. We had been to hell and back together, without getting hurt. Later, I told Addison that if I could apply that level of faith and persistence to my human relationships, I’d have it made. He laughed. "Everybody is afraid to face their fears," he says. "And this puts you right in there where you have to use all the gifts that the Creator blessed you with. You get a better understanding of yourself."


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