From Brooklyn to Worthington, Minnesota
Novelist Tim O'Brien revisits his past to come to terms with his rural hometown
- By Tim O'Brien
- Photographs by Layne Kennedy
- Smithsonian magazine, November 2009, Subscribe
From the year of his birth in 1914 until the outbreak of war in 1941, my father lived in a mostly white, mostly working-class, mostly Irish Catholic neighborhood in Brooklyn, New York. He was an altar boy. He played stickball and freeze tag on safe, tree-lined streets. To hear my dad talk about it, one would've thought he had grown up in some long-lost Eden, an urban paradise that had vanished beneath the seas of history, and until his death a few years ago, he held fast to an impossibly idyllic, relentlessly romanticized Brooklyn of the 1920s and '30s. No matter that his own father died in 1925. No matter that he went to work as a 12-year-old to help support a family of five. No matter the hardships of the Great Depression. Despite everything, my dad's eyes would soften as he reminisced about weekend excursions to Coney Island, apartment buildings festooned with flower boxes, the aroma of hot bread at the corner bakery, Saturday afternoons at Ebbets Field, the noisy bustle along Flatbush Avenue, pickup football games on the Parade Grounds, ice-cream cones that could be had for a nickel and a polite thank-you.
Following Pearl Harbor, my father joined the Navy, and soon afterward, without the dimmest inkling that he had stepped off a great cliff, he left behind both Brooklyn and his youth. He served on a destroyer at Iwo Jima and Okinawa, met my mother in Norfolk, Virginia, got married in 1945, and, for reasons still unclear to me, set off with my mom to live amid the corn and soybeans of southern Minnesota. (True, my mother had grown up in the area, but even so, why didn't they settle in Brooklyn? Why not Pasadena or even the Bahamas?)
I showed up in October 1946, part of an early surge that would become a great nationwide baby boom. My sister, Kathy, was born a year later. In the summer of 1954, after several years in Austin, Minnesota, our family moved across the state to the small, rural town of Worthington, where my dad became regional manager for a life insurance company. To me, at age 7, Worthington seemed a perfectly splendid spot on the earth. There was ice skating in winter, organized baseball in summer, a fine old Carnegie library, a decent golf course, a Dairy Queen, an outdoor movie theater and a lake clean enough for swimming. More impressively, the town styled itself Turkey Capital of the World, a title that struck me as both grand and a bit peculiar. Among the earth's offerings, turkeys seemed a strange thing to boast about. Still, I was content for the first year or two. I was very close to happy.
My father, though, did not care for the place. Too isolated. Too dull and pastoral. Too far removed from his big-city youth.
He soon began drinking. He drank a lot, and he drank often, and with each passing year he drank more. Over the next decade he twice ended up in a state treatment facility for alcoholics. None of this, of course, was the fault of the town, any more than soybeans can be faulted for being soybeans. Rather, like a suit of clothes that may fit beautifully on one man but too snugly on another, I have come to believe that Worthington—or maybe the rural Midwest in general—made my dad feel somehow limited, consigned to a life he hadn't planned for himself, marooned as a permanent stranger in a place he could not understand in his blood. An outgoing, extravagantly verbal man, he now lived among famously laconic Norwegians. A man accustomed to a certain vertical scale to things, he lived on prairies so flat and so unvaried that one spot could be mistaken for any other. A man who had dreamed of becoming a writer, he found himself driving down lonely farm lanes with his insurance applications and a halfhearted sales pitch.
Then, as now, Worthington was a long way from Brooklyn, and not just in the geographical sense. Tucked into the southwestern corner of Minnesota—12 miles from Iowa, 45 miles from South Dakota—the town was home to about 8,000 people when our family arrived in 1954. For centuries the surrounding plains had been the land of the Sioux, but by the mid-1950s not much remained of that: a few burial mounds, an arrowhead here and there, and some borrowed nomenclature. To the south was Sioux City, to the west Sioux Falls, to the northeast Mankato, where on December 26, 1862, a group of 38 Sioux were hanged by the federal government in a single mass execution, the result of a bloody revolt earlier that year.
Founded in the 1870s as a railroad watering station, Worthington was an agricultural community almost from the start. Tidy farms sprang up. Sturdy Germans and Scandinavians began fencing in and squaring off the Sioux's stolen hunting grounds. Alongside the few surviving Indian names—Lake Okabena, Ocheyedan River—such solidly European names as Jackson and Fulda and Lismore and Worthington were soon transposed to the prairie. Throughout my youth, and still today, the town was at its core a support system for outlying farms. No coincidence that I played shortstop for the Rural Electric Association's Little League team. No coincidence that a meatpacking plant became, and remains, the town's primary employer.
For my father, still a relatively young man, it had to be bewildering to find himself in a landscape of grain elevators, silos, farm implement dealerships, feed stores and livestock sales barns. I don't mean to be deterministic about it. Human suffering can rarely be reduced to a single cause, and my dad may well have ended up with similar problems no matter where he lived. Yet unlike Chicago or New York, small-town Minnesota did not allow a man's failings to disappear beneath a veil of numbers. People talked. Secrets did not stay secret. And for me, already full of shame and embarrassment at my dad's drinking, the humiliating glare of public scrutiny began eating away at my stomach and at my self-esteem. I overheard things in school. There was teasing and innuendo. I felt pitied at times. Other times I felt judged. Some of this was imagined, no doubt, but some was as real as a toothache. One summer afternoon in the late '50s, I heard myself explaining to my teammates that my dad would no longer be coaching Little League, that he was in a state hospital, that he might or might not be back home that summer. I did not utter the word "alcohol"—nothing of the sort—but the mortification of that day still opens a trapdoor in my heart.
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I came upon this article when someone mentioned the name Tim O'Brian and I perked up to proudly announce: "he's from my hometown!" Reading the article immediately brought me back, as well as the comments here with several memorable Worthington surnames.
I have lived far from Worthington for the last half decade and I remember the drive myself to leave the place. For years I kept pushing myself away, only to find myself floating slowly back. I hated the place as well; feeling like those who stayed were those who refused to dream, to move on. Now it's more of an ache to return and re-examine the dream, though this article may have removed the need.
I think of Worthington now as a place that resists the idyllic. It pushes itself away from the idyllic memories of our pasts there and tells us: "I am not done expanding and there will be no relaxation until I'm finished".
Posted by Ryan Ailts on December 23,2011 | 11:14 PM
What a coincidence. In this issue there was an article about my home town, Buckhannon,WV and one on Worthington Mn where I lived one year when my husband who was with Campbell Soup, managed the "Creamery" or the chicken plant for Swanson Co. We built a house built my Orvile Apple and only lived in it for three months as we were transferred to Omaha, Nb. My memmories are of warm and friendly people and "one hot day" on July 4th and the ice fishing and the betting on the day the old car would go through the ice in the winter. Also, the -23 degree day when you could not get warm.
Posted by Julia Sweeney on December 22,2009 | 01:19 PM
Tim:
Great article on the both the joy and sorrows of growing up in a small town. As many of the other writers have alluded to your dad Bill was a great guy and fun to be around. I fondly remember referring to Bill and Gene Seleen as pigeon meat when we played golf frequently in the late 60's and early 70's--which is not to say that they didn't occasionally take my money, as you have a few times as well.
Living in a small town in a much simpler time as we did had its rewards, but it was not enough to cover up the pain that a kid experiences growing up in a dysfunctional home. You've weathered well, have had a great career and inspired countless budding writers and students to put pen to paper. Your parents
As for Worthington, it's a very different place than when we grew up. Is it better or worse now? Who knows--it is was it is. Immigrants have continued to come to the shores of Lake Okabena to build a new life. Maybe the only thing that's changed is the notion often suggested by one of my cousins "Worthington is the kind of place that everyone thinks they are going to go to heaven." Maybe not so much anymore.
Talk to you soon
Greg
Posted by Greg Andrews on November 30,2009 | 12:47 PM
Tim,
I liked the article. I was the class of 83. I knew your brother as he was in the same class as my sister and we knew each other through golf. The main reason for my liking was the warm memories it brought back of the "Silver Fox" as your dad was known to me. Sometimes it was Wild Bill. The summer of 1982, Bill and Gene Seleen took interest in me and let me play some golf with them. They treated me well, gave me wonderful memories and taught me what it meant to look after the next generation. Bill also taught me how to play, and win, at liars poker. Everytime I saw him after that summer, for many years, he would pull a dollar out and call five 9's. He was a good man and lots of fun. I thought he had a wonderful sense of humor and that is what I will remember of him.
My inlaws still live in Worthington and it os not the same place, but I am not the same person. Life goes on, but I am glad I grew up in Worthington, MN.
Greg
Posted by Greg on November 23,2009 | 09:59 PM
Hi, Tim!
Just came apon your article about Worthington. You likely will not remember me but I was in your graduating class. I certainly remember you and remember you with great fondness. You were always a gentleman.
I wasn't aware of your family concerns and never heard anything bad about you nor your family.
I live in Belle Plaine, Mn (just south of Minneapolis). Have lived pretty much all over Minnesota.
Now that my parents are gone, I don't make it back to Worthington much although still have some relatives there. Will be going there for a family Christmas party on my wife's side.
I actually moved back to Worthington from 1988 to 1995. My kids kind of grew up during that time. My daughter met Marty & Pam Ricker's daughter there and are still life-long friends. Worthington was a great place to grow up and I think it was for my kids too, at least for the short time they were there.
I was back for our 45th High School reunion last month. Had a blast! Was hoping to see you there.
Would love to see you if you're in our area! Most people pass through Belle Plaine when going to the cities!
By the way, loved your article!
- Bob
Posted by Bob Holbrook on November 23,2009 | 08:13 PM
Hi Tim
Just finished reading your article on Worthington and what you remember about it when you grew up here and your perspective of it now. Good article. I was in your sister Kathy class and she introduced us once in high school. The thing I would like to tell you is about your Dad. I got to know your Dad when he and his fellow agent, I believe his name was Tommy Burns, if I remember right, would stop in at the local pool hall in Rushmore, Mn. I'm originally from Rushmore and when your Dad and Tommy would stop in they were alway up for a game of pool. I, and my best friend, played many a pool games with them. I don't remember who won, but what I do remember is, your Dad was one of the nices guys I ever met. By the time the pool games ended, we had tears in our eyes from laughing. I don't know if he drank to much, it's not for me to judge, all I know is he was a very nice guy.
Posted by Jerry Wiertzema on November 22,2009 | 09:37 PM
Looks like I'm joining a number of my fellow former Worthingtonians in their comments. Great article, Tim. I make it home more often than you do and have seen many of the changes you chronicle. The town has indeed changed, and your always observant eye captures more of those changes than most locals probably notice.
Thanks, too, for remembering your Dad. I never had the privilege of having him as a coach (I was never the athletic type!!), but I do remember a big, gentle man with a shock of white hair stopping at my table at the Nobles County Library to tell me "Steve, keep reading; it opens new worlds for you," and a father who expressed his pride in "all of Tim's books" when I visited with him before interviewing you in 1980.
Please give my best to your Mom and to Kathy and Greg. I still use "If I Die In A Combat Zone" in my Vietnam War class. It resounds as well with today's students as it did when I first used it 24 years ago.
And you are always welcome to drop in and visit with my classes if you ever happen to be in Hibbing!!
Steve Potts, Hibbing, Minnesota
Posted by Steve Potts on November 19,2009 | 04:38 PM
This article was interesting. Like Edward, I initially almost lost interest as the connections being drawn were not logical....but that is exactly the point....the connections we make are not logical in situations like this-but emotional..... nor are the components that create family, individual, and community dynamics logical. The town may not have had anything to do with his father's drinking, nor Brooklyn for that matter, and logically, they do not...but emotionally (Or spiritually if you prefer to think of it in that context) they absolutely are connected, by the bonds of the author's experience and his very human ability to step back and see the connections, as illogical or non causal as they may seem to be....perhaps not standard fare for Somithsoinian, but very intriguing.
Even more fascinating? Reading the thread of responses....there's more rich material to mine from this. I look forward to a follow up essay.
Posted by Dale J. Young on November 19,2009 | 03:56 PM
The grandson of a blue-collar Sicilian immigrant, I grew up in the 1940s and early '50s in an Illinois village of 100. Insular? Probably. Idyllic? No doubt. Since then, I've had the good fortune to have lived in large cities in several states, traveled to Europe often and had two books published by traditional publishers. Unlike Mr. O'Brien, I look back to my childhood with nothing but fondness. We all go through teenage angst. We all want to see the world. But that doesn't mean the town of our youth was bad, though it may well mean that our home life was not the best.
I find myself wondering how much diversity is good. Contrary to what Mr. O'Brien and so many others want us to believe--indeed, what they foist upon us as a given--I'm not so sure that the degree of diversity represented by 42 languages and dialects in a town of 11,000, whether in the Midwest or anywhere else, bodes well for our culture. I won't live to see the the answers. My children and grandchildren will. I'm far less confident than Mr. O'Brien in the prospects.
Posted by Peter Shianna on November 15,2009 | 09:06 PM
Tim:
I really enjoyed the article. It was interesting how you tied the characteristics of a small town to the dysfunction of your family. A small town really can hold you back.
Even small towns can grow over time though as showcased in your article. The transformation of your former small town to a more diverse and more cultural place sounded like a welcome revelation.
All in all I thought the story was told from a very interesting perspective. Although the story's pertinence has been questioned by other commenters, I found the story thought provoking, interesting, and a good read.
Posted by Kevin Bruen on November 13,2009 | 10:01 AM
Mr. O'Brien,
In this article, you bring Worthington, Minnesota, to life. I feel by adding such a personal element you bring this story closer to your readers. I enjoy your writing and can't wait to read more.
Posted by Mandy Power on November 11,2009 | 07:02 PM
Thanks for sharing your heart in this article. My wife is from Worthington, and coming to know the town as an outsider has been a pretty interesting experience. We live in Wisconsin now and only visit there a few times a year. One of those occasions is the annual King Turkey Day celebration... which is only appropriate in light of your reference to Worthington being the Turkey capital of the world.
Relating to your comments about how you felt about Worthington, particularly the painful mental and emotional associations you mentioned, I have experienced the same to a much lesser degree. After I graduated from college in 1998, I moved in with my parents for about a year. They were living in Poplar Branch, North Carolina, a community that felt very isolated and backward to me. I was very lonely during that year and was wrapped up in my own addictions. It was, simpy put, one of the worst experiences in my life. Even now, if I pass through that area when going down south to visit my parents, or I hear a song that I came to know during that year, I am instantly reminded of how painful that was. Even now, I can feel it in the pit of my stomach.
All that to simply say that I can certainly relate to how you were feeling about Worthington previous to your recent visit. I'm glad that you were able to see it for what it is becoming. Many of the old vestiges of the "laconic" northern European attitudes remain, but it is being infused with the flavor of new cultures and it has been pretty exciting to see from a distance. My wife and I are adopting a little boy from Ethiopia, and our first experience with Ethiopian food was actually in Worthington, of all places, at the Queen of Sheba restaurant right down town. It is quite the little rural Minnesota town!
Posted by Ed Hudgins on November 9,2009 | 09:31 AM
Dear Tim,
Thanks for a wonderful article in which you captured so much of the power and sentiment of what it is to call someplace home. I share memories of a father who could never shake his private battle with alcohol - that often times makes going back to the town where I was raised more than melancholy.
The last part of your narrative is most compelling as I have been immersed in working with communities undergoing demographic changes and transformation. This is especially true for meat packing towns all across the USA. There is a great deal that folks don't even imagine when they sit down to a turkey dinner or grab a burger. Meat processing is an industry that has brought the world to small, rural communities.
I thank you for the gripping prose that highlights how lucky we are to have the diversity color our communities and enrich our lives.
Kind regards.
Posted by Joe Wismann-Horther on November 5,2009 | 06:49 PM
Thanks, Tim, for your thoughts on 'Our Town'. I listen now as kids in the Saint Paul schools are reading and discussing 'The Things They Carried' and I am remembering how much fun it was for students in Worthington to read that book. It was their book.
I left Worthington 13 years ago, but a part of me will always miss the small town intimacy in all of its splendor and pain.
I am sending the article on to many. Thank you again.
Mary Beth Blegen
Posted by Mary Beth Blegen on November 4,2009 | 06:35 PM
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